Chapter Nine: "...Clearly I had to learn the hard way..."

My dad used to say that every dog has his day. 
 
I guess the same is true with people.  That’s where they get the ‘fifteen minutes of fame’ statement from.  While some people like myself don’t like the spotlight, other people live for it. They do whatever they need to do to stay in it, not caring about who they hurt to get there.  And while they are there, they carelessly drink it all in.  They bask in the glow of temporary approval and adoration.  They live for every second that they hold the world captive.  And they forget that when it is over, it’s over – never to be regained again.
 
Those people can’t live with that.  And they definitely can’t live with the consequences that come afterward.
 
One thing I know is true – what goes around comes around.  The same people you hurt, you have to pass on the way back down.  That’s why I try to live my life in a way that no matter what happens, my highs and my lows are lived with the same grace and decorum that a woman should always have.  Sometimes the girls think that I play it too safe, that I don’t risk much, and that I stay in bad situations too long because I’m scared to find out what else the rest of the world can bring.  But I’d rather be safe and sane than silly and sorry.  I hate to say it like that, but it’s the truth.  And while I know that some risks – like being alone for the first time in a long time – need to be taken, I refuse to do things that I might regret.  I don’t like living with regrets.  I can’t afford to make foolish mistakes like that.  I’m not a kid anymore.
 
But some people don’t believe that fat meat is greasy…
 
                                                                                                                                       -  Urie
 


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“A toast,” Tony raised his champagne glass, “to my beautiful wife Lydia who, in a few short months, will make me a father all over again.”  Everyone in attendance raised their glasses except for Lydia, who simply smiled uncomfortably.  Tony looked at her and smiled.  “Baby, you and I have had a rough year.  I know I put you through a lot, was away a lot, and wasn’t there for you and the boys like you deserve.  But when I think about how blessed I am to have a wife at home who loves and supports me, it makes me work extra hard to make sure that I keep a smile on your face.  Happy 7th Anniversary, Lydee.”   Smiles and applause came from everyone in attendance.  “Ok, enough of this mushy stuff.  You all came for a party, so enjoy yourselves!” The Dj turned the music back and people began to head back to the dance floor.  Tony made his way back to Lydia, who was sitting at a table sipping on some ginger ale.  “You look beautiful tonight, did I tell you that?”
 
“Yes, you did.”  Lydia said in a distant tone.  “But thank you…”

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