Chapter Six: "But right now, I need more..."

It’s hard being in love with someone who you know is all wrong for you and being in serious like with the perfect person. 
 
Bryce and I have an amazing time when we hang out.  And while he understands that any interaction that we have is only as friends or co-workers, I know he wants more. And so do I.
 
What I really want is my sanity back.  I want to be able to tell Eva that everything is going to be ok and mean it.  I want to be sure that if I walk away from Jackson, he is going to be a real man and take care of his daughter.  And most of all, I want to be sure that I can be alone without having a mental breakdown. 
 
Maybe my therapist was right.  Maybe I do need to spend some quality time by myself.  I think I lost sight of that the moment I made my life about everyone else.
 
But when do I get to think about what I want?
 


                                                                                                                               -  Urie




“Thank you for dinner last night.”  Lydia stretched out on the bed as the sunlight pushed through the blinds.  “Their lasagna was almost as good as mine.”
 
“Was dinner all you enjoyed?”
 
“The music and coffee were good too?”  Both Lydia and Calvin laughed.  “Come on now, Calvin.  You know what I think about how you put it down.”
 
“That’s my bad girl.”
 
“You love it.” Lydia paused as she heard footsteps come toward the bedroom door.  “Hold on.”  She shoved the phone inside her pillowcase as Tony walked in.  He let out a deep sigh of fatigue as she set down his suitcase.  After noticing Lydia lying on the bed, he immediately began to smile. Lydia cringed as he left the items lying in the middle of the floor.  “So you’re just gonna leave those there, huh?”
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